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‫ﺳﻔﻴﺪ ﺑﻮﺩﻳﻢ‪ ،‬ﺩﻳﻮ ﭘﺎﻭﺭﺯ‪ ،‬ﻛﻨﺎﺭ ﺁﺏ ﻧﺸﺴﺘﻪ‬ ‫ﻣﻰﻣﻰ ﺍﻟﻔﻮﺭﺩ‪:‬‬ ‫ﺍﺯ ﻛﺘﺎﺏﻫﺎﻯ ﻏﻮﻏﺎ ﺑﺮﺍﻧﮕﻴﺰ ﺳﺎﻝ‬
‫ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺷﻠﻮﺍﺭﺵ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺎﻻ ﺯﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻭ ﭘﺎﻫﺎﻳﺶ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﻣﻌﺸﻮﻗﻪ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‬ ‫‪ 2011‬ﺧﺎﻃﺮﺍﺕ ﻣﺎﺭﻳﻮﻥ ﺁﻟﻔﻮﺭﺩ‪،‬‬
‫ﺩﺭﻭﻥ ﺁﺏ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﭘﺮﺯﻳﺪﻧﺖ ﺩﺭ ﮔﻮﺷﻢ ﺯﻣﺰﻣﻪ‬ ‫ﻣﻌﺮﻭﻑ ﺑﻪ »ﻣﻰﻣﻰ«‪ ،‬ﺯﻥ ‪69‬ﺳﺎﻟﺔ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺩ‪ :‬ﺩﻳﻮ ُﻛﻔﺮﻯ ﺍﺳﺖ‪ ،‬ﻧﻤﻰﺗﻮﺍﻧﻰ ﺣﺎﻟﺶ‬ ‫ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻣﻰ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻪ ﺍﻭ ﮔﻔﺘﻢ ﻣﻌﺎﻭﻧﺶ‬ ‫پ ـ ﭼﮕﻮﻧﻪ ﻋﺸﻖ ﻣﻰﻭﺭﺯﻳﺪ؟‬ ‫پ ـ ﺩﻭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﺍﻭ ﺭﺍ ﻛﻰ ﺩﻳﺪﻳﺪ؟‬ ‫ﺁﻥ ﻣﻰﺍﻧﺪﻳﺸﻢ‪ ،‬ﻣﻰﺑﻴﻨﻢ ﻋﺠﻴﺐﺗﺮﻳﻨﺶ‬ ‫ﺁﻣﺮﻳﻜﺎﻳﻰ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺑﻪﻧﺎﻡ »ﺩﺍﺳﺘﺎﻥ ﻳﻚ‬
‫ﺭﺍ ﺟﺎ ﺑﻴﺎﻭﺭﻯ؟ ﻣﻦ ﺩﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ ﻛﻪ ﻣﻰﺧﻮﺍﻫﺪ‬ ‫ﻟﻴﻨﺪﻥ ﺟﺎﻧﺴﻮﻥ ﺭﺍ ﻣﻼﻗﺎﺕ ﻛﺮﺩﻩﺍﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺍﻳﻦ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻣﺎﺟﺮﺍ ﺧﻴﻠﻰ ﺭﺍﺣﺖ ﻭ‬
‫ﺑﺎ ﺍﻭ ﻭﺭ ﺑﺮﻭﻡ ﻭ ﺑﺎ ﻛﻤﺎﻝ ﺷﺮﻣﺴﺎﺭﻯ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺩﺳﺘﻮﺭ ﺩﺍﺩ ﻛﻪ ﻧﺰﺩﻳﻚ ﺍﻭ ﻧﺸﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﺩﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ‬ ‫ﻡ ـ ﺧﻮﺵ ﻣﻰﮔﺬﺭﺍﻧﺪﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﺷﻬﻮﺕﺭﺍﻥ‬ ‫ﻡ ـ ﻫﻔﺘﻪ ﺑﻌﺪ‪ .‬ﺍﻭ ﺑﺎﺭﻯ ﺩﮔﺮ ﻣﺮﺍ ﺑﻪ‬ ‫ﻋﺸﻖ ﺍﺳﺘﺜﻨﺎﻳﻰ«‪.‬‬
‫ﺍﻳﻦ ﻛﺎﺭ ﺭﺍ ﺍﻧﺠﺎﻡ ﺩﺍﺩﻡ ﻭ ﻧﻤﻰﺩﺍﻧﻢ ﭼﺮﺍ؟‬ ‫ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﻫﺮﮔﺰ ﻣﺮﺍ ﻧﺒﻮﺳﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﻋﺎﺷﻖ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺑﻮﺩ‬ ‫ﻣﻘﺮ ﺧﺼﻮﺻﻰ ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﺑﺮﺩ‪ .‬ژﺍﻛﻰ ﺑﺮﺍﻯ‬ ‫ﻃﺒﻴﻌﻰ ﮔﺬﺷﺖ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺩﺭ ﻣﻘﺎﻟﺔ »ﺧﻴﺮﺍﻧﺪﻳﺶ ـ ﻛﻴﻬﺎﻥ‬
‫ﻛﺎﺭ ﺷﺮﻡﺁﻭﺭﻯ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻫﻢ ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﻣﻦ‪ ،‬ﻫﻢ‬ ‫ﻛﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻭ ﭘﺮﻫﻴﺰ ﻣﻰﻛﻨﺪ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻛﻪ ﻣﻮﻫﺎﻯ ﻋﺎﻟﻰ ﺧﺸﻜﺶ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺎ ﻛﺮﻣﻬﺎﻯ‬ ‫ﺗﻌﻄﻴﻼﺕ ﺑﻪ ﻭﻳﺮﺟﻴﻨﻴﺎ ﺭﻓﺘﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ‬ ‫‪ «1395‬ﺑﻪﺍﺧﺘﺼﺎﺭ ﺩﺭﺑﺎﺭﺓ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻛﺘﺎﺏ‬
‫ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﺍﻭ‪ ،‬ﺟﻠﻮﻯ ﭼﺸﻤﺎﻥ ﺍﺭﺑﺎﺑﺶ‪ ،‬ﻛﻪ ﻧﺎﻇﺮ‬ ‫ﻓﺮﺍﻧﺲ ﻓﻮﻛﺲ ﻣﺎﻟﺶ ﺩﻫﻢ‪ .‬ﺷﺒﻬﺎ ﻣﺪﺕ‬ ‫ﻣﻰﺗﻮﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ ﻧﭙﺬﻳﺮﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﭘﺬﻳﺮﻓﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﺑﺪﻭﻥ‬ ‫پ ‪ -‬ﺍﻳﻦ ﺍﻭﻟﻴﻦ ﺑﺎﺭ ﺑﻮﺩ؟‬ ‫ﺳﺨﻦ ﺭﻓﺘﻪ ﻭ ﭼﻨﻴﻦ ﺁﻣﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪» :‬ﺩﺭ‬
‫ﺻﺤﻨﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪﺵ ﻣﻦ ﻛﻪ ﻣﻨﻘﻠﺐ ﺷﺪﻩ‬ ‫پ ـ ﺷﻤﺎ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺧﻔﺎ ﻭ ﺭﺍﺑﻄﻪ ﭘﻨﻬﺎﻧﻰ‬ ‫ﺩﺭﺍﺯﻯ ﺩﺭﻭﻥ ﻭﺍﻥ ﺣﻤﺎﻡ ﻣﻰﻣﺎﻧﺪﻳﻢ ﻭ ﺑﺎ ﺩﻭ‬ ‫ﺁﻥ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻪ ﺧﻮﺩ ﺍﻗﺮﺍﺭ ﻛﻨﻢ‪ ،‬ﻣﻴﻞ ﺁﻥ ﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﭘﻨﺠﺎﻫﻤﻴﻦ ﺳﺎﻝ ﻗﺘﻞ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ )ﻧﻮﺍﻣﺒﺮ‬
‫ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﺑﻪ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺭﺧﺘﻜﻦ ﮔﺮﻳﺨﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﺷﻨﻴﺪﻡ‬ ‫ﺭﺍ ﺩﻭﺳﺖ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻴﺪ؟‬ ‫ﺍﺭﺩﻙ ﭘﻼﺳﺘﻴﻜﻰ ﺯﺭﺩ ﺭﻧﮕﻰ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻪ ﺍﻭ ﻫﺪﻳﻪ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﺗﻨﻬﺎ ﺑﻮﺩﻳﻢ‪ ،‬ﺷﺎﻡ ﺧﻮﺭﺩﻳﻢ ﻭ ﺍﻭ‬ ‫ﻡ ‪ -‬ﺑﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺟﺎﻥ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻣﻰ ﻛﻪ ﺭﻭﻯ‬ ‫‪ (1963‬ﺩﻳﮕﺮ ﺧﺎﻃﺮﺍﺕ ﻭ ﺗﺤﻘﻴﻘﺎﺗﻰ‬
‫ﻛﻪ ﺩﻳﻮ ﺍﺭﺑﺎﺑﺶ ﺭﺍ ﺳﺮﺯﻧﺶ ﻛﺮﺩ ﻭ ﺍﻭ ﻫﻢ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻧﺪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎﺯﻯ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﺁﻧﻬﺎ ﺭﺍ ﺩﺭﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺍ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺑﺎﺭ ﺑﻪ ﺍﺗﺎﻕ ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﺑﺮﺩ‪ .‬ﺩﺭ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺍﻓﺘﺎﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻣﺘﻮﺟﻪ ﺷﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﺑﺎ ﺍﺣﺘﻴﺎﻁ‬ ‫ﺍﺯ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻗﺒﻴﻞ ﻛﻪ ﻭﺍﻗﻌﺔ ﺩﺍﻻﺱ ﻳﻚ‬
‫ﻡ ـ ﺑﻠﻪ‪ .‬ﺩﺭ ﺯﻣﺴﺘﺎﻥ ‪ 1962‬ـ ‪،1963‬‬ ‫ﺁﺏ ﺑﻪ ﻣﺴﺎﺑﻘﻪ ﻭﺍﻣﻰﺩﺍﺷﺘﻴﻢ‪ .‬ﺳﭙﺲ ﺷﺎﻡ‬ ‫ﺁﻧﺠﺎ ﻳﻚ ﺗﺨﺘﺨﻮﺍﺏ ﭘﺮﺩﻩﺩﺍﺭ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺑﺎ ﺩﻭ‬ ‫ﻋﻤﻞ ﻛﺮﺩ ﻭ ﻣﺮﺗﺐ ﻣﻰﭘﺮﺳﻴﺪ‪ :‬ﺁﻳﺎ ﻣﺸﻜﻠﻰ‬ ‫ﺗﻮﻃﺌﺔ ﺳﻴﺎﺳﻰ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻳﺎ ﻣﺎﻓﻴﺎﻳﻰ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﺯ ﻣﺎ ﭘﻮﺯﺵ ﺧﻮﺍﺳﺖ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺳﺮﺩ ﺳﺒﻜﻰ ﻣﻰﺧﻮﺭﺩﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﺍﻏﻠﺐ ﺳﺎﻧﺪﻭﻳﺞ‬ ‫ﻣﺒﻞ ﻛﻨﺎﺭ ُﺷﻤﻴﻨﻪ‪ ،‬ﻛﺘﺎﺏ ﻭ ﺭﻭﺯﻧﺎﻣﻪ‬ ‫ﻧﻴﺴﺖ؟ ﻣﻦ ﺭﻭﻯ ﺁﺭﻧﺠﻬﺎﻳﻢ ﺗﻜﻴﻪ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻢ ﻭ‬ ‫ﺑﺎﺯﺍﺭ ﻓﺮﻭﺵ ﻧﺪﺍﺭﺩ‪ .‬ﺑﺮﻋﻜﺲ‪ ،‬ﺍﮔﺮ‬
‫ﮔﻮﺷﺖ ﮔﺎﻭ ﺑﻮﺩ ﺑﺎ ﻛﻮﻛﺘﻴﻞ ﻣﻴﮕﻮ‪ .‬ﻳﻚ ﺭﻭﺯ‬ ‫ﻫﻢ ﻫﻤﻪ ﺟﺎ ﭘﺨﺶ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﺯ ﻣﻦ ﭘﺮﺳﻴﺪ‪:‬‬ ‫ﺑﻪ ﺍﻭ ﺍﺟﺎﺯﻩ ﻋﻤﻞ ﻣﻰﺩﺍﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﻌﺪ ﺍﻭ ﺗﺒﺴﻤﻰ‬ ‫ﻛﺴﻰ ﺩﺍﺳﺘﺎﻥ ﺗﺎﺯﻩﺍﻯ ﺩﺭﺑﺎﺭﺓ ﺭﻭﺍﺑﻂ‬
‫پ ـ ﻣﻌﻬﺬﺍ ﺷﻤﺎ ﺩﻭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﺑﺎﺯﮔﺸﺘﻴﺪ ‪...‬‬ ‫ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺁﻣﻮﺧﺖ ﺧﻮﺭﺍﻙ ﺗﺨﻢ ﻣﺮﻍ ﻣﻮﺭﺩ‬ ‫ﻣﻰﺧﻮﺍﻫﻰ ﺣﻤﺎﻡ ﺑﮕﻴﺮﻯ؟ ﻣﻰﺗﻮﺍﻧﻰ ﺩﺭ‬ ‫ﻛﺮﺩ ﻭ ﺣﻤﺎﻡ ﺭﺍ ﻧﺸﺎﻧﻢ ﺩﺍﺩ‪ .‬ﺩﺭ ﺁﻧﺠﺎ ﻟﺒﺎﺳﻢ‬ ‫ﺟﻨﺴﻰ ﺭﺋﻴﺲ ﺟﻤﻬﻮﺭﻯ ﻓﻘﻴﺪ‬
‫ﻋﻼﻗﻪﺍﺵ ﺭﺍ ﺩﺭﺳﺖ ﻛﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﻳﻚ ﻃﺒﻘﻪ ﻛﺎﺥ‬ ‫ﺭﺍ ﺑﺒﻨﺪﻯ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ ﻣﻨﺘﻈﺮﺕ ﻣﻰﻣﺎﻧﻢ‪ .‬ﺭﺍﺑﻄﻪ‬ ‫ﺭﺍ ﭘﻮﺷﻴﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻣﻰ ﻛﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺣﻤﺎﻡ ﺑﻴﺮﻭﻥ‬ ‫ﺁﻣﺮﻳﻜﺎ ﺍﺭﺍﺋﻪ ﺩﻫﺪ ﻣﺸﺘﺮﻯ ﭘﻴﺪﺍ‬
‫ﻡ ـ ﺑﻠﻪ‪ .‬ﺩﺭ ﺗﺎﺑﺴﺘﺎﻥ ‪ ،1963‬ﺩﻭﺑﺎﺭﻩ‬ ‫ﺩﺭ ﺍﺧﺘﻴﺎﺭ ﻣﺎ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﻣﺎ ﺗﻨﻬﺎ ﺍﺯ ﺍﺗﺎﻕ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻣﺎ ﺍﻳﻦ ﭼﻨﻴﻦ ﺷﺮﻭﻉ ﺷﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺩﺭ ﻃﻮﻝ‬ ‫ﺁﻣﺪﻡ‪ ،‬ﺍﻭ ﮔﻢ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺳﭙﺲ ﺻﺪﺍﻳﺶ ﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﻣﻰﻛﻨﺪ‪ .‬ﻳﻚ ﻣﺎﺩﺭﺑﺰﺭگ ‪69‬ﺳﺎﻟﺔ‬
‫ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﻛﺎﺭﺁﻣﻮﺯﻯ ﺩﺭ ﺑﺨﺶ ﻣﻄﺒﻮﻋﺎﺕ‬ ‫ﺣﻤﺎﻡ ﻭ ﺁﺷﭙﺰﺧﺎﻧﻪ ﺍﺳﺘﻔﺎﺩﻩ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩﻳﻢ‬ ‫ﺗﺎﺑﺴﺘﺎﻥ ‪1962‬ﻳﻜﻰ ﺩﻭ ﺑﺎﺭ ﺩﺭ ﻫﻔﺘﻪ ﺍﻭ‬ ‫ﺷﻨﻴﺪﻡ ﻛﻪ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﻣﻦ ﺍﻳﻨﺠﺎ ﺗﻮﻯ ﺳﺎﻟﻦ‬ ‫ﺁﻣﺮﻳﻜﺎﻳﻰ ﺳﻮﺭﺍﺥ ﺩﻋﺎ ﺭﺍ ﭘﻴﺪﺍ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ‬
‫ﻛﺎﺥ ﺳﻔﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﺍﻳﻦ ﺑﺎﺭ ﺷﺒﻬﺎﻯ ﻛﻤﺘﺮﻯ‬ ‫ﻭ ﺑﻪ ﺻﺪﺍﻯ ﻓﺮﺍﻧﻚ ﺳﻴﻨﺎﺗﺮﺍ ﻭ ﺗﻮﻧﻰ ﺑﻨﺖ‬ ‫ﻫﺴﺘﻢ‪ ،‬ﺩﻟﺖ ﻣﻰﺧﻮﺍﻫﺪ ﭼﻴﺰﻯ ﺑﺨﻮﺭﻯ؟‬ ‫ﻭ ﺑﺎ ﺍﻧﺘﺸﺎﺭ ﺧﺎﻃﺮﺍﺕ ﺧﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺷﻬﺮﺕ‬
‫ﺭﺍ ﺑﺎ ﺍﻭ ﮔﺬﺭﺍﻧﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻛﻪ ژﺍﻛﻰ‬ ‫ﮔﻮﺵ ﻣﻰﺩﺍﺩﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﮔﺎﻫﻰ ﻫﻢ ﺑﻪ ﺁﻭﺍﺯ »‪I‬‬ ‫ﺭﺍ ﻣﻰﺩﻳﺪﻡ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﻓﻘﻂ ﻣﻰﺧﻮﺍﺳﺘﻢ ﺑﻪ ﺧﺎﻧﻪ ﺑﺎﺯﮔﺮﺩﻡ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻭ ﺛﺮﻭﺕ ﺭﺍ ﻳﻜﺠﺎ ﺑﻪﭼﻨﮓ ﺁﻭﺭﺩﻩ‬
‫ﺣﺎﻣﻠﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻫﻔﺖ ﺍﻭﺕ ﭘﺴﺮﻯ ﺑﻪ ﺩﻧﻴﺎ‬ ‫‪ ،«believe in you‬ﺑﺎ ﺻﺪﺍﻯ ﺭﺍﺑﺮﺕ‬ ‫ﺍﻭ ﻓﻬﻤﻴﺪ ﻭ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﺍﺷﻜﺎﻟﻰ ﻧﺪﺍﺭﺩ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮﺍﻳﺖ‬
‫ﺁﻭﺭﺩ ﻛﻪ ﻓﺮﺩﺍﻯ ﺁﻥ ﺭﻭﺯ‪ ،‬ﺑﺨﺎﻃﺮ ﻣﺸﻜﻞ‬ ‫ﻣﺮﺱ‪ ،‬ﻛﻪ ﻫﺮ ﺩﻭﻣﺎﻥ ﺩﻭﺳﺖ ﻣﻰﺩﺍﺷﺘﻴﻢ‪،‬‬ ‫ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻠﻰ ﺻﺪﺍ ﻣﻰﻛﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﺗﺎ ﺩ ِﺭ ﺁﺳﺎﻧﺴﻮﺭ ﺑﺎ‬ ‫ﺍﺳﺖ«!‬
‫ﺩﺳﺘﮕﺎﻩ ﺗﻨﻔﺴﺶ ﺩﺭﮔﺬﺷﺖ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺍﺯ‬
‫ﭘﺎ ﺩﺭ ﺁﻣﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻣﻰ ﻛﻪ ژﺍﻛﻰ ﺩﺭ‬ ‫ﮔﻮﺵ ﻣﻰﺩﺍﺩﻳﻢ‪.‬‬ ‫ﭘﺎﺭﻯ ﻣﺎچ ـ ﭼﮕﻮﻧﻪ ﻣﻌﺸﻮﻗﻪ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ‬
‫‪ Cape Cod‬ﺍﺳﺘﺮﺍﺣﺖ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻭ‬ ‫ﺷﺪﻳﺪ؟‬
‫ﺑﻪ ﻛﺎﺥ ﺳﻔﻴﺪ ﺑﺮﮔﺸﺖ ﻭ ﻣﺮﺍ ﻧﺰﺩ ﺧﻮﺩ‬
‫ﺧﻮﺍﻧﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﺎ ﻏﺮﻭﺏ ﺭﻭﻯ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﻨﻰ ﻧﺸﺴﺘﻴﻢ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻣﻰ ﻣﻰـ ﻣﻦ ﺗﺼﻮﺭ ﻧﻤﻰﻛﺮﺩﻡ ﻛﻪ‬
‫ﺍﻭ ﻏﻤﺰﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻭ ﺑﺎ ﭼﺸﻤﺎﻧﻰ ﭘﺮ ﺍﺯ ﺍﺷﻚ‪،‬‬ ‫ﭼﻨﻴﻦ ﺭﺍﺑﻄﻪﺍﻯ ﺑﻪﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺁﻳﺪ‪ .‬ﭼﻬﺎﺭ ﺭﻭﺯ‬
‫ﻧﺎﻣﻪﻫﺎﻯ ﺗﺴﻠﻴﺖ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻮﺍﻧﺪ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺑﺨﺶ ﻣﻄﺒﻮﻋﺎﺕ ﻛﺎﺥ ﺳﻔﻴﺪ‬
‫ﻫﻢ ﺷﺮﻳﻚ ﻏﻢ ﺍﻭ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺁﻥ ﺷﺐ ﻣﻮﻗﻊ‬ ‫ﻛﺎﺭﺁﻣﻮﺯﻯ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩﻡ ﻛﻪ ﺍﻭ ﻣﺮﺍ ﺑﻪ ﺁﭘﺎﺭﺗﻤﺎﻥ‬
‫ﺧﺼﻮﺻﻰﺍﺵ ﺑﺮﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﺸﺮﻭﺑﻰ ﺩﺭ ﺁﻧﺠﺎ ﺁﻣﺎﺩﻩ‬
‫ﻋﺸﻘﺒﺎﺯﻯ ﻧﺒﻮﺩ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﭘﻨﺪﺍﺷﺘﻢ ﺑﻪﺧﺎﻃﺮ ﺧﻮﺵﺁﻣﺪﮔﻮﻳﻰ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺑﻪ ﺷﻐﻞ ﺟﺪﻳﺪ ﺍﺳﺖ‪ .‬ﻧﺨﺴﺖ ﻳﻚ‬
‫پ ـ ﻛﻰ ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﺁﺧﺮﻳﻦ ﺑﺎﺭ ﺍﻭ ﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﮔﻴﻼﺱ ﻭ ﺳﭙﺲ ﺩﻭ ﮔﻴﻼﺱ ﺍﺯ ﺁﻥ‬
‫ﺩﻳﺪﻳﺪ؟‬ ‫ﻧﻮﺷﻴﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻣﻰ ﻛﻪ ﺭﺋﻴﺲ ﺟﻤﻬﻮﺭ ﺑﻪ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﭘﻴﺸﻨﻬﺎﺩ ﻛﺮﺩ ﻛﺎﺥ ﺭﺍ ﻧﺸﺎﻧﻢ ﺩﻫﺪ‪ ،‬ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻡ ـ ﺩﺭ ﻧﻴﻮﻳﻮﺭﻙ‪ ،‬ﺩﺭ ﻫﺘﻞ ﻛﺎﺭﻻﻳﻞ‪،‬‬
‫ﺍﻭ ﺟﻠﺴﻪ ﺩﺍﺷﺖ‪ 15 .‬ﻧﻮﺍﻣﺒﺮ ﺳﺎﻝ ‪1963‬‬ ‫ﺣﻴﺮﺕ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ ﻭ ﺷﺎﺩﻣﺎﻥ ﺷﺪﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻳﻚ ﻫﻔﺘﻪ ﭘﻴﺶ ﺍﺯ ﻣﺮﮔﺶ‪ .‬ﺭﺍﺑﻄﻪ ﻣﺎ‬
‫ﺩﻳﮕﺮ ﺁﻥ ﺭﺍﺑﻄﻪ ﮔﺬﺷﺘﻪ ﻧﺒﻮﺩ ﻭ ﺧﻴﻠﻰ ﻛﻤﺘﺮ‬ ‫پ ‪ -‬ﺷﻤﺎ ﺑﺎ ﺍﻭ ﺗﻨﻬﺎ ﺑﻮﺩﻳﺪ؟‬
‫ﻋﺸﻘﺒﺎﺯﻯ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩﻳﻢ‪ .‬ﺧﻮﺍﺳﺖ ﺍﻭ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺷﺎﻳﺪ‬
‫ﺑﺨﺎﻃﺮ ﻣﺮگ ﭘﺴﺮﺵ‪ ،‬ﺷﺎﻳﺪ ﻫﻢ ﺑﺨﺎﻃﺮ ﺍﻳﻦ‬ ‫ﻡ ‪ -‬ﺧﻴﺮ‪ ،‬ﻣﺸﺎﻭﺭﺵ ﺩﻳﻮ ﭘﺎﻭﺭﺯ ﻫﻢ ﺑﻮﺩ‬
‫ﻛﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺩﺭ ﺩﺍﻧﺸﮕﺎﻩ ﺑﺎ ﺗﻮﻧﻰ ﺁﺷﻨﺎ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‬ ‫ﻭ ﺍﻭ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﻧﻮﺷﺎﺑﻪ ﺗﻌﺎﺭﻑ ﻛﺮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭ ﻣﻨﺸﻰ‬
‫ﻭ ﻗﺼﺪ ﺍﺯﺩﻭﺍﺝ ﺑﺎ ﺍﻭ ﺭﺍ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺑﻪ‬ ‫ﻫﻢ ﺣﻀﻮﺭ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻨﺪ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻌﺪﻫﺎ ﺷﻨﻴﺪﻡ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺳﻴﺼﺪ ﺩﻻﺭ ﺩﺍﺩ ﻛﻪ ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﻟﺒﺎﺱ‬ ‫ﻣﻰﮔﻔﺘﻨﺪ ﻛﻪ ﻣﻌﺸﻮﻗﻪﻫﺎﻯ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺑﻮﺩﻧﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻗﺸﻨﮕﻰ ﺑﺨﺮﻡ‪ .‬ﻫﺪﻳﻪ ﺟﺪﺍﻳﻰ ﻣﺎ‪ .‬ﺳﻴﺼﺪ‬ ‫ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻣﻰ ﻛﻪ ﭘﺮﺯﻳﺪﻧﺖ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﭘﻴﺸﻨﻬﺎﺩ ﻛﺮﺩ‬
‫ﺩﻻﺭ ﺩﺭ ﺁﻥ ﺯﻣﺎﻥ ﻣﺒﻠﻎ ﻗﺎﺑﻞ ﺗﻮﺟﻬﻰ ﺑﻮﺩ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺩﻧﺒﺎﻟﺶ ﺑﺮﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﺩﻳﮕﺮﺍﻥ ﻣﺎ ﺭﺍ ﺗﻨﻬﺎ ﮔﺬﺍﺷﺘﻨﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻡ ﺧﺪﺍﺣﺎﻓﻈﻰ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﺣﻴﻒ ﻛﻪ ﺑﺎ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻣﺎ ﺍﺯ ﺍﺗﺎﻗﻰ ﺑﻪ ﺍﺗﺎﻕ ﺩﻳﮕﺮ ﻣﻰﺭﻓﺘﻴﻢ ﺗﺎ ﺍﻳﻦ‬
‫ﻛﻪ ﺗﻪ ﺩﺍﻻﻧﻰ‪ ،‬ﺩﺭﻯ ﺭﺍ ﮔﺸﻮﺩ ﻭ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﺍﻳﻦ‬

‫ﺍﺗﺎﻕ ﺧﺎﻧﻢ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺍﺳﺖ‪.‬‬

‫پ ‪ -‬ﺷﻤﺎ ﻧﺎﺭﺍﺣﺖ ﺑﻮﺩﻳﺪ؟‬

‫ﻡ ‪ -‬ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﻣﻦ ﻋﺠﻴﺐ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﻣﻰﺩﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ‬
‫ﻛﻪ ژﺍﻛﻰ‪ ،‬ﻛﺎﺥ ﺳﻔﻴﺪ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺎﺯﺳﺎﺯﻯ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ‬
‫ﺍﺳﺖ‪ ،‬ﺍﻧﺪﻳﺸﻴﺪﻡ ﺷﺎﻳﺪ ﺑﻪﻫﻤﻴﻦ ﺧﺎﻃﺮ ﺁﻥ‬
‫ﺭﺍ ﻧﺸﺎﻧﻢ ﻣﻰﺩﻫﺪ‪ ،‬ﺑﺨﺎﻃﺮ ﺳﺘﺎﻳﺶ ﺍﺯ ﻛﺎﺭ‬
‫ﻫﻤﺴﺮﺵ‪ .‬ﺍﺗﺎﻕ ﻓﻮﻕﺍﻟﻌﺎﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﺑﻪ ﺭﻧﮓ‬
‫ﺁﺑﻰ ﺭﻭﺷﻦ‪ ،‬ﺑﺎ ﭘﻨﺠﺮﻩﻫﺎﻯ ﺑﺰﺭﮔﻰ ﻣﺸﺮﻑ‬

‫پ ـ ﻫﻴﭻ ﺍﺗﻔﺎﻕ ﺍﻓﺘﺎﺩ ﻛﻪ ﺷﺐ ﺭﺍ‬
‫ﺩﺭ ﻛﺎﺥ ﺳﻔﻴﺪ ﺑﺨﻮﺍﺑﻴﺪ؟‬

‫ﻡ ـ ﺑﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﭼﻨﺪﻳﻦ ﺑﺎﺭ‪ .‬ﺩﺭ ﭼﻨﻴﻦ ﻣﻮﺍﻗﻌﻰ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﻛﺖ ﭘﻴﮋﺍﻣﺎﻯ ﻧﺨﻰ ﺁﺑﻰ ﺭﻧﮓ ﺍﻭ ﺭﺍ‬
‫ﻣﻰﭘﻮﺷﻴﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﻫﻴﭻ ﺯﻣﺎﻥ ﻣﺠﺒﻮﺭ ﻧﺸﺪﻡ ﻛﻪ‬

‫ﺷﺘﺎﺏ ﺯﺩﻩ ﻓﺮﺍﺭ ﻛﻨﻢ‪.‬‬

‫ﻣﻰ ﻣﻰ )ﻧﻔﺮ ﺍﻭﻝ ﺳﻤﺖ ﺭﺍﺳﺖ( ﻫﻤﺮﺍﻩ ﺑﺎ ﮔﺮﻭﻩ ﻫﻤﻜﺎﺭﺍﻧﺶ ﺩﺭ ﭘﺎﻯ ﭘﻠﻜﺎﻥ ﺑﺎﻟﻜﻦ ﻛﺎﺥ‬ ‫پ ـ ﺩﺭ ﺳﭙﺘﺎﻣﺒﺮ‪ ،1962‬ﻛﺎﺭ ﺁﻣﻮﺯﻯ‬
‫ﺳﻔﻴﺪ )ﺗﺎﺑﺴﺘﺎﻥ ‪(1962‬‬ ‫ﺷﻤﺎ ﺩﺭ ﻛﺎﺥ ﺳﻔﻴﺪ ﭘﺎﻳﺎﻥ ﻣﻰﻳﺎﺑﺪ ﻭ‬

‫ﺑﻪ ﺩﺍﻻﺱ ﻧﻤﻰﺁﻳﻰ‪ .‬ﻣﺮﺍ ﺩﺭ ﺁﻏﻮﺵ ﻛﺸﻴﺪ ﻭ‬ ‫ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺍﺯ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻮﺍﺳﺖ ﻛﻪ ﻫﻤﺮﺍﻫﺶ‬ ‫ﺷﻤﺎ ﺑﻪ ﺩﺍﻧﺸﻜﺪﻩ ﺑﺮﻣﻰ ﮔﺮﺩﻳﺪ‪.‬‬ ‫‪ 15‬ﻧﻮﺍﻣﺒﺮ ﺳﺎﻝ ‪) 1963‬ﻳﻚ ﻫﻔﺘﻪ ﭘﻴﺶ ﺍﺯ ﺗﺮﻭﺭ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ( ﺁﺧﺮﻳﻦ ﺩﻳﺪﺍﺭ ﻣﻰ ﻣﻰ ﺑﺎ ﺟﺎﻥ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺑﻮﺩ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﻧﻤﻰﺩﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ ﻛﻪ ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﺁﺧﺮﻳﻦ ﺑﺎﺭ ﺍﺳﺖ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﻪ ﺳﻔﺮﻫﺎﻯ ﺭﺳﻤﻰ ﺑﺮﻭﻡ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫پ ـ ﺍﻭ ‪ 45‬ﺳﺎﻝ ﺩﺍﺷﺖ ﻭ ﺷﻤﺎ ‪19‬‬
‫ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺭﺍ ﺩﺭ ﺍﺗﺎﻗﻬﺎﻯ ﻣﺠﻠﻞ ﻫﺘﻞﻫﺎ‬ ‫ﻡ ـ ﺍﻭ ﻓﻜﺮ ﻫﻤﻪ ﭼﻴﺰ ﺭﺍ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﮔﻔﺖ‪:‬‬ ‫ﺳﺎﻝ‪ .‬ﺍﻭ ﺭﺋﻴﺲ ﺟﻤﻬﻮﺭ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻭ ﺷﻤﺎ ﻳﻚ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﺁﻣﺪ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻡ ﺑﺴﺘﻦ ﺩﺭ‪ ،‬ﮔﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﺷﺐ‬ ‫ﺑﺮ ﭼﻤﻦ‪.‬‬
‫پـﭼﮕﻮﻧﻪﺍﺯﻣﺮﮔﺶﺑﺎﺧﺒﺮﺷﺪﻳﺪ؟‬ ‫ﻣﻰﻳﺎﻓﺘﻢ ﻭ ﻟﺬﺕ ﻣﻰﺑﺮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺗﻨﻬﺎ ﻳﻚ ﺑﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﺷﻤﺎﺭﻩ ﺗﻠﻔﻦ ﺧﻮﺍﺑﮕﺎﻫﺖ ﺭﺍ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺪﻩ‪ ،‬ﺑﻪ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﻧﺸﺠﻮ‪ .‬ﭼﮕﻮﻧﻪ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻋﺪﻡ ﺗﻌﺎﺩﻝ ﺭﺍ‬ ‫ﺑﺨﻴﺮ ﻣﻰﻣﻰ‪ ،‬ﺍﻣﻴﺪﻭﺍﺭﻡ ﻛﻪ ﻫﻤﻪ ﭼﻴﺰ ﺑﻪ‬
‫ﺩﺭ ﭘﺎﻟﻢ ﺳﭙﺮﻳﻨﮕﺰ‪ ،‬ﺧﻴﻠﻰ ﺑﺪ ﮔﺬﺷﺖ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺗﻮ ﺯﻧﮓ ﺧﻮﺍﻫﻢ ﺯﺩ‪ .‬ﻳﻚ ﻫﻔﺘﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺷﺮﻭﻉ‬ ‫پ ‪ -‬ﭼﮕﻮﻧﻪ ﺑﻪ ﺷﻤﺎ ﻧﺰﺩﻳﻚ ﺷﺪ؟‬
‫ﻡ ـ ﺍﺯ ﺭﺍﺩﻳﻮ ﺷﻨﻴﺪﻡ‪ .‬ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻣﻰ ﻛﻪ‬ ‫ﺩﺭﺳﻬﺎ ﻧﮕﺬﺷﺘﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﻳﻜﻰ ﺍﺯ ﺭﻓﻘﺎﻳﻢ‬ ‫ﻫﻀﻢ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩﻳﺪ؟‬ ‫ﺧﻮﺑﻰ ﺑﮕﺬﺭﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﺎﺑﻮﺗﺶ ﺭﺍ ﺗﻮﻯ ﺗﻠﻮﻳﺰﻳﻮﻥ ﺩﻳﺪﻡ ﺗﺎﺏ‬ ‫پ ـ ﭼﻪ ﺭﺥ ﺩﺍﺩ؟‬ ‫ﺑﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺯﺩ ﻭ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﻣﺎﻳﻜﻞ ﻛﺎﺭﺗﺮ ﻧﺎﻣﻰ ﺑﺎ‬ ‫ﻡ ‪ -‬ﻧﺨﺴﺖ ﺗﺼﻮﻳﺮﻯ ﺍﺯ ﻛﺎﺭﻭﻟﻴﻦ ﻧﺸﺎﻧﻢ‬
‫ﻧﻴﺎﻭﺭﺩﻡ ﻭ ﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﻣﺎﺟﺮﺍ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﻫﻤﺴﺮﻡ‬ ‫ﺗﻮ ﻛﺎﺭ ﺩﺍﺭﺩ‪ .‬ﻧﺎﻡ ﻣﺴﺘﻌﺎﺭﻯ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﺍﻭ ﺑﺮﺍﻯ‬ ‫ﻡ ـ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻮﺭﺩ ﻧﻈﺮ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﺯ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫پ ‪ -‬ﻓﺮﺩﺍﻳﺶ ﭼﻪ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺳﻰ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺩ ﺑﺎ ﻣﺠﺴﻤﻪ ﻧﻴﻢﺗﻨﻪ ﻳﻚ ﭘﺴﺮ ﺑﭽﻪﺍﻯ ﻛﻪ‬
‫ﺗﻮﻧﻰ ﺣﻜﺎﻳﺖ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺗﻮﻧﻰ ﺑﻰ ﻧﻬﺎﻳﺖ‬ ‫ﻡ ـ ﺟﺸﻦ ﺑﺰﺭﮔﻰ ﻧﺰﺩ ﺩﻭﺳﺘﺶ ﺑﻴﻨﻚ‬ ‫ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﺍﻧﺘﺨﺎﺏ ﻛﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﻌﻤﻮﻻً ﺷﺒﻬﺎ‬ ‫ﺩﺭﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻰ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﺳﻠﻴﻘﻪﺍﻡ‪ ،‬ﺩﻭﺳﺘﺎﻧﻢ ﻭ‬ ‫ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻴﺪ؟‬ ‫ﺷﺒﻴﻪ ﺟﺎﻥﺟﺎﻥ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ ،‬ﻭ ﻣﻦ ﺧﻴﻠﻰ ﺗﺤﺖ‬
‫ﺧﺸﻤﮕﻴﻦ ﺷﺪ ﻭ ﺍﺯ ﻣﻦ ﻗﻮﻝ ﮔﺮﻓﺖ ﻛﻪ‬ ‫ﻛﺮﺍﺯﺑﻰ ﺑﺮ ﭘﺎ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻭ ﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﻫﻮﻟﻴﻮﻭﺩ ﺩﺭ ﺁﻧﺠﺎ‬ ‫ﺯﻧﮓ ﻣﻰﺯﺩ‪ .‬ﻛﺴﻰ ﻫﻢ ﺻﺪﺍﻳﺶ ﺭﺍ ﻧﻤﻰ‬
‫ﻫﺮﮔﺰ ﺩﺭ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺑﺎﺭﻩ ﺻﺤﺒﺘﻰ ﻧﻜﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﻭ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﺣﻀﻮﺭ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻨﺪ‪ .‬ﻳﻚ ﻧﻮﻉ ﺍﻓﺴﺎﺭ ﮔﺴﻴﺨﺘﮕﻰ‬ ‫ﺷﻨﺎﺧﺖ‪ .‬ﺑﺎ ﺳﻮﺃﻻﺗﺶ ﻣﺮﺍ ﺑﻤﺒﺎﺭﺍﻥ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩ‬ ‫ﺗﺄﺛﻴﺮ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻛﺎﺭﺵ ﻗﺮﺍﺭ ﮔﺮﻓﺘﻢ‪ .‬ﺳﭙﺲ ﻧﻔﺲ ﻡ – ﻧﻤﻰﺩﺍﻧﺴﺘﻢ ﭼﻪ ﻓﻜﺮ ﻛﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﺍﺯ ﭼﻴﺰﻫﺎﻯ ﻣﻮﺭﺩ ﻋﻼﻗﻪﺍﻡ ﻣﻰﭘﺮﺳﻴﺪ‪ .‬ﺳﺆﺍﻝ‬
‫ﻓﻀﺎ ﺭﺍ ﺩﺭ ﺑﺮ ﮔﺮﻓﺖ ﻭ ﻣﻬﻤﺎﻧﻰ ﺗﺒﺪﻳﻞ‬ ‫ﻭ ﺍﺯ ﺯﻧﺪﮔﻰ ﺩﺍﻧﺸﮕﺎﻫﻰ ﻣﻦ ﻣﻰﭘﺮﺳﻴﺪ‪ ،‬ﺑﻌﺪ‬
‫ﻫﻢ ﺑﻪ ﻗﻮﻟﻢ ﻭﻓﺎ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﻪ ﻛﺎﺑﻮﺱ ﺷﺪ‪ .‬ﺁﻥ ﺷﺐ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺑﻪ ﻣﻦ‬ ‫ﻣﻰﮔﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﻛﻰ ﻣﻰﺁﻳﻰ ﻣﺮﺍ ﺑﺒﻴﻨﻰ؟ ﻗﺮﺍﺭﻯ‬ ‫ﺍﻭ ﺭﺍ ﺑﺮﮔﺮﺩﻧﻢ ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺁﻧﮕﺎﻩ ﺩﺭ ﺑﻪ ﺧﺎﻧﻮﺍﺩﻩﺍﻯ ﻣﺤﺘﺮﻡ ﻭ ﺳﻨﺘﻰ ﺗﻌﻠﻖ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩ‪ :‬ﺷﻤﺎ ﺩﺧﺘﺮﺍﻥ ﺑﻴﻦ ﺧﻮﺩﺗﺎﻥ ﺩﺭ‬
‫‪ poppers‬ﺩﺍﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﮔﺮﻳﺨﺘﻢ ﻭ ﻛﻢ ﻣﺎﻧﺪﻩ‬ ‫ﻣﻰﮔﺬﺍﺷﺘﻴﻢ ﻭ ﻣﺸﺎﻭﺭﺵ ﺩﻳﻮ ﭘﺎﻭﺭﺯ‪ ،‬ﺗﺮﺗﻴﺐ‬
‫پ ـ ﭼﺮﺍ ﭘﺲ ﺍﺯ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻫﻤﻪ ﺳﺎﻝ ﺍﺯ‬ ‫ﺑﻮﺩ ﺑﻴﻬﻮﺵ ﺷﻮﻡ‪ .‬ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﺍﻭﻟﻴﻦ ﺑﺎﺭ‪ ،‬ﺍﺯ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻛﻪ‬ ‫ﻛﺎﺭ ﺭﺍ ﻣﻰﺩﺍﺩ‪ .‬ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﻣﻦ ﻳﻚ ﺑﻠﻴﺖ ﻫﻮﺍﭘﻴﻤﺎ‬ ‫ﭼﺸﻤﺎﻧﻢ ﻧﮕﺮﻳﺴﺖ ﻭ ﮔﻔﺖ‪ :‬ﺍﻳﻨﺠﺎ ﺭﺍﺣﺖ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻢ ﻭ ﻣﻰﺑﺎﻳﺴﺖ ﺗﻜﺎﻥ ﻣﻰﺧﻮﺭﺩﻡ ﺷﺒﺎﻧﻪﺭﻭﺯﻯ ﭼﻪ ﻣﻰﻛﻨﻴﺪ؟ ﺷﺎﻳﺪ ﺍﻣﻴﺪﻭﺍﺭ‬
‫ﺍﻳﻦ ﺭﺍﺯ ﭘﺮﺩﻩ ﺑﺮﺍﻓﻜﻨﺪﻳﺪ؟‬ ‫ﺑﺎ ﺍﻭ ﺩﺭﻭﻥ ﻳﻚ ﺗﺨﺖ ﻧﻤﻰﺧﻮﺍﺑﻢ‪ ،‬ﺍﺣﺴﺎﺱ‬ ‫ﻭ ﻳﻚ ﺍﺗﻮﻣﺒﻴﻞ ﻣﻰﻓﺮﺳﺘﺎﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﺩﺭ ﻓﺮﻭﺩﮔﺎﻩ‬
‫ﻭﺍﺷﻨﮕﺘﻦ ﭘﻴﺎﺩﻩ ﻣﻰﺷﺪﻡ ﻭ ﺭﺍﻧﻨﺪﻩﺍﻯ ﺑﺎ‬ ‫ﺧﻮﺍﻫﻴﻢ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﻣﺮﺍ ﺑﻪ ﺳﻮﻯ ﺗﺨﺖ ﻛﺸﻴﺪ ﻭ ﺍﻣﺎ ﭼﻨﻴﻦ ﭼﻴﺰﻯ ﻧﺒﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺯﻣﺎﻧﻰ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﻣﻦ ﺭﺍﺯ ﺩﺧﺘﺮﺍﻥ ﺭﺍ ﻓﺎﺵ ﻛﻨﻢ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ‬
‫ﻡ ـ ﺑﺮﺍﻯ ﺍﻳﻦ ﻛﻪ ﺍﺯ ﺳﺎﻝ ‪ 2003‬ﻛﻪ‬ ‫ﺳﺒﻜﻰ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻭﺭﻗﻪﺍﻯ ﻛﻪ ﻧﺎﻡ ﻣﻦ ﺭﻭﻳﺶ ﺩﺭﺝ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪،‬‬
‫ﺧﺒﺮﻧﮕﺎﺭﺍﻥ ﻧﻴﻮﻳﻮﺭﻙ ﻣﺮﺍ ﻳﺎﻓﺘﻨﺪ‪ ،‬ﺩﻳﮕﺮ‬ ‫ﻣﻦ ﻣﻘﺎﻭﻣﺘﻰ ﻧﺸﺎﻥ ﻧﺪﺍﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺩﺭ ﺑﺎﺯ ﻛﺮﺩﻥ ﺩﺍﻧﺴﺖ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺎﻛﺮﻩﺍﻡ‪ ،‬ﺭﺍﺑﻄﻪ ﻭﻳﮋﻩﺍﻯ ﺑﻴﻦ ﻧﺴﺒﺖﺑﻪﺣﺎﻟﺖﻧﻮﺟﻮﺍﻧﺎﻧﻪﻭﮔﺎﻫﻰﺧﺠﺎﻟﺘﻰ‬
‫ﺭﺍﺯﻯ ﺩﺭ ﻣﻴﺎﻥ ﻧﺒﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺭﺍﺑﻄﻪ ﻣﻦ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮﺧﻼﻑ‬ ‫پ ـ ﭼﺮﺍ ﺁﻥ ﺷﺐ ﺍﻳﻨﮕﻮﻧﻪ ﺭﻓﺘﺎﺭ‬ ‫ﺩﺭ ﺍﻧﺘﻈﺎﺭﻡ ﺑﻮﺩ‪.‬‬
‫ﻣﻴﻞ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ‪ ،‬ﺑﺮﻣﻼ ﺷﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩ‪ .‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﻋﺎﺩﺕ ﺑﺎﻗﻰ‬ ‫ﻛﺮﺩ؟‬ ‫ﺩﮔﻤﻪﻫﺎﻯ ﻟﺒﺎﺳﻢ ﺑﻪ ﺍﻭ ﻛﻤﻚ ﻫﻢ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﻣﺎ ﺗﻨﻴﺪﻩ ﺷﺪ‪ .‬ﺍﻭ ﺧﻴﻠﻰ ﺑﺎ ﺍﺣﺘﻴﺎﻁ ﺑﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺍﻭ ﺣﺴﺎﺳﻴﺖ ﺩﺍﺷﺘﻢ ‪ ...‬ﺍﻣﺎ ﻫﻤﻴﺸﻪ ﺍﻭ ﺭﺍ‬
‫ﻣﺎﻧﺪ ﻭ ﻣﻦ ﺑﺮ ﺣﺴﺐ ﻋﺎﺩﺕ‪ ،‬ﻫﻤﭽﻨﺎﻥ ﺑﻪ‬ ‫پ ـ ﺁﻳﺎ ﺩﺭ ﻃﻮﻝ ﺁﻥ ﺳﺎﻝ ﺍﻭ ﺭﺍ‬
‫ﺧﺎﻣﻮﺷﻰ ﺍﺩﺍﻣﻪ ﺩﺍﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﻣﻦ ﻭ ﺗﻮﻧﻰ ﺩﺭ ﺳﺎﻝ‬ ‫ﻡ ـ ﻣﻦ ﺟﺴﺘﻪ ﮔﺮﻳﺨﺘﻪ‪ ،‬ﭘﺎﺭﻩﺍﻯ ﺍﺯ‬ ‫ﺯﻳﺎﺩ ﺩﻳﺪﻳﺪ؟‬ ‫ﺁﻗﺎﻯ ﭘﺮﺯﻳﺪﻧﺖ ﺧﻄﺎﺏ ﻣﻰﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺑﻪ ﻧﻈﺮ ﻋﺠﻴﺐ ﻣﻰﺁﻳﺪ ﺍﻣﺎ ﺍﻣﺮﻭﺯ ﻛﻪ ﺑﻪ ﻧﺰﺩﻳﻜﻰ ﻛﺮﺩ‪.‬‬
‫‪ 1990‬ﺍﺯ ﻫﻢ ﺟﺪﺍ ﺷﺪﻳﻢ ﻭ ﺩﺭ ‪،2005‬‬ ‫ﻋﻴﻮﺑﺶ ﺭﺍ ﺩﻳﺪﻩ ﻭ ﺷﻨﻴﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﻭ ﻫﻨﮕﺎﻣﻰ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺑﺎ ﺩﻳﻚ ﺍﺯﺩﻭﺍﺝ ﻛﺮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﺍﻭ ﻣﺮﺍ ﺗﺸﻮﻳﻖ‬ ‫ﻛﻪ ﺩﺭ ﺟﻤﻊ ﻣﺮﺩﺍﻥ ﺁﺷﻨﺎﻳﻰ ﺑﻮﺩﻳﻢ‪،‬‬ ‫ﻡ ـ ﺑﻠﻪ‪ ،‬ﺗﺤﺖ ﻋﻨﻮﺍﻥ ﻛﺎﺭﻣﻨﺪ ﺑﺨﺶ‬
‫ﻛﺮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﭘﺬﻳﺮﺍﻯ ﮔﺬﺷﺘﺔ ﺧﻮﺩﻡ ﺑﺎﺷﻢ‪.‬‬ ‫ﺧﻮﺩﺵ ﺭﺍ ﻧﺸﺎﻥ ﻣﻰﺩﺍﺩ‪ .‬ﻧﻴﺎﺯ ﺩﺍﺷﺖ ﺑﻨﻤﺎﻳﺪ‬ ‫ﻣﻄﺒﻮﻋﺎﺕ‪ .‬ﺩﺭ ﺍﻛﺘﺒﺮ ‪ ،1962‬ﺩﺭ ﺑﺤﺒﻮﺣﻪ‬
‫ﭘﻨﺠﺎﻩ ﺳﺎﻝ ﺑﻪ ﻃﻮﻝ ﺍﻧﺠﺎﻣﻴﺪ ﺗﺎ ﺑﭙﺬﻳﺮﻡ ﻛﻪ‬ ‫ﻛﻪ ﺑﺮ ﻣﻦ ﻣﺴﻠﻂ ﺍﺳﺖ‪ .‬ﭼﻨﺪ ﻣﺎﻩ ﻗﺒﻞ ﺍﺯ‬ ‫ﺑﺤﺮﺍﻥ ﻛﻮﺑﺎ ﻣﻦ ﺩﺭ ﻛﺎﺥ ﺳﻔﻴﺪ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪ .‬ﻫﺮﮔﺰ‬
‫ﻣﻌﺸﻮﻗﻪ ﻛﻨﺪﻯ ﺑﻮﺩﻥ ﺩﺭ ﺳﻦ ‪ 19‬ﺳﺎﻟﮕﻰ‬ ‫ﺁﻥ‪ ،‬ﺩﺭ ﺗﺎﺑﺴﺘﺎﻥ ‪ ،1962‬ﺻﺤﻨﻪ ﺷﺮﻡﺁﻭﺭﻯ‬ ‫ﭘﺮﺯﻳﺪﻧﺖ ﺭﺍ ﺍﻳﻦ ﺳﺎﻥ ﻧﮕﺮﺍﻥ ﻧﺪﻳﺪﻩ ﺑﻮﺩﻡ‪.‬‬
‫ﭘﺪﻳﺪ ﺁﻣﺪ‪ .‬ﺁﻥ ﺭﻭﺯ ﻣﺎ ﻛﻨﺎﺭ ﺍﺳﺘﺨﺮ ﺩﺭ ﻛﺎﺥ‬ ‫ﺗﻤﺎﻡ ﺷﺐ ﺭﺍ ﭘﺎﻯ ﺗﻠﻔﻦ ﮔﺬﺭﺍﻧﺪ‪ .‬ﺍﺯ ﻣﻮﺍﻗﻊ‬
‫ﺷﺮﻡﺁﻭﺭ ﻧﺒﻮﺩ‪.‬‬ ‫ﻧﺎﺩﺭﻯ ﺑﻮﺩ ﻛﻪ ﻣﻰﺩﻳﺪﻡ ﺧﻮﻧﺴﺮﺩﻯ ﺧﻮﺩ‬
‫ﺭﺍ ﺍﺯ ﺩﺳﺖ ﺩﺍﺩﻩ ﺍﺳﺖ‪ .‬ﺷﻨﻴﺪﻡ ﻛﻪ ﻣﻰﮔﻔﺖ‬
‫ﻣﻦ ﺗﺮﺟﻴﺢ ﻣﻰﺩﻫﻢ ﻓﺮﺯﻧﺪﺍﻧﻢ ﺭﺍ ﻛﻤﻮﻧﻴﺴﺖ‬

‫ﺑﺒﻴﻨﻢ ﺗﺎ ﻣﺮﺩﻩ‪.‬‬

‫پ ـ ﺁﻳﺎ ﻫﻴﭻ ﺷﺎﻳﻌﻪﺍﻯ ﺩﺭﺑﺎﺭﻩ‬
‫ﺭﻭﺍﺑﻂ ﺷﻤﺎ ﻭﺟﻮﺩ ﺩﺍﺷﺖ؟‬

‫ﻡ ـ ﺗﻌﺪﺍﺩ ﻛﻤﻰ ﺍﺯ ﺁﺩﻣﻬﺎ ﻣﻰﺩﺍﻧﺴﺘﻨﺪ‪.‬‬
‫ﺗﻨﻬﺎ ﻣﻮﻗﻌﻰ ﻛﻪ ﺩﻳﺪﻡ ﺍﻭ ﻧﺎﺭﺍﺣﺖ ﺷﺪ‪،‬‬